Nai Xin is the key???

Well..
Decided to purple(lavanderish) my font...
To lift my mood up abit...
Was getting all emotional up again on the bus back home after meeting her...

hmmm...
haven been blogging for long...
lets just update abit... haha

well somhow i felt happy for her...
because she became more mature...
in sense of life and thinking...
but its not too good because she is all into work now...
neglecting not only me... but family and friends too...
so think about it... if they can get neglected... whats more to say abt me? >.<

well i guess.. alot of things i better not say...
cause its scary...
most of the things i forsee 98% just happen to come true... especially... when i say it...
i use to be a brat... who can't forsee stuff... only happy go lucky and wait for mirical to happen... if not... work hard for the stuff i wanted...
but ever since i started workin... since 17...
and having more time and gathering with my guys...
i begain to think more... learn more observe more...
and with my sensitivity... i kinda unleash my hidden talent which is... forseeing things...
and as i join SSC.. they really drill me in my forseeing skills... to the point.. it gets pretty scary...

well...
recently.. things between us got better...
after taking a step back...
and getting back to who i really am...
i am able to see the smallest care, details of her towards me...
and somehow... i'm back to the easily content guy...
but at times... easily contented... is not equal to not standards set or don't have desires or idea of what i want...

To me... in a relationship...
the most important thing is communication, care and consent...
affection... responsiability... hugs and kisses...

Why?

Cause communication brings the 2 person closer... let the 2 person know each other better...
and also unknowingly let the 2 spent more time tgt even if physically not there/ not free...

Care and consent?
its obvious right? its a sign of showing and proving your feelings...

Affection...
to me since young... i realised.. physically contact unknowingly brings 2person's feeling and attraction stronger... be it guy or gal... lyk good buddies? and gfs? think abt it...
well i once read it from a pick up artise.. he too confirm that from a pro's point of view...
and some reason... its also proven true...

Responsibility...
well if you want something... naturally you must take care of it isn't it?
and even if you are the one being taken care of... should you try to report or let your partner know your where abt and safety? and also with this responsibilities.. isn't it another way to make 2 think more and care more for each other?

Hugs and Kisses...
to me...
hugs and kisses can tell more then action...
even if the kiss is plain... one sure can feel it...
i always kiss with passion... feeling and wholeheartedly...
cause be it how the person think like her... (she dun feel that hugs and kisses mean anything...)
one can still pass the message to them.. telling them how much you love them and how you feel...

Honestly...
how she is kind of physically sensitivy to me...
its lyk i can't even touch her...
even a slight pat on the back she will tell me off...
holding her when she is hurt on the leg... her body will move in a way that repel my hands...
sitting in the car... can no longer hold her to prevent her from falling...(cause she dun sit still and especially when turning)
i no longer can hold her by her waist while walking... she claim she dun lyk... but to me... no it felt more lyk get your hands off me...
now when comes to hugging... she won't hold me anymore... dun even talk abt tight...
kisses... is getting lesser... she tends to reject too... long and deep kisses? dun even think abt it anymore...

Yes... althought we are not in a relationship...
but we start off being so close.. to the point... its lyk a couple...
just without any status...

as time goes...
all this are getting lesser...
and it end up lyk now...
i understand her feelings are fading... but there are still some left...
if not she won't be angry with me for certain things...
won't report to me her not and then...

well what make it worst is...
i'm not longer in her plans...
lyk whatever she say in the past... she will say it lyk... well i can't give all my off days to you.. but... i can meet you awhile before meeting them.. and if you have the heart... you will join them with me...
now... she just say it lyk well i can't give all my time to you... i still have my sisters and frens... so ya see how 1st....
when ever i say i book her or plan a date with her this will come...
well i realised i'm no longer in her topic and life...
it like i'm fading slowly...
i began to worry once i go army... and when i have lesser time with her... at times when i book out... she will even forget or dun bother.... if you take things as how it progress now....

well i really hope...
things are improving as of what i see in certain ways...
but... her actions doesn't tele...
maybe its because of the work that is affecting...
not the feelings fading...
i'm trying my best to win her heart... and i'm being very paitents here....
the only fear i have is even with patients... things won't work out...

i really hope lyk what most ppl tell me.. once you go army.. maybe she will miss you more and begin to think your absents is making her uncomfortable... i really hope so... althought i have no prove or signs that she will...

well i really hope the army things is a good way for us to start fresh... and make things work out... instead of distanting us more....
well feeling better after streaming out...

well this is still the best place for me to refresh and start fresh....