plans...

Well yesterday was not bad=D
when down to look for her at IMM..
actually wanted to eat.. but when i see her not eatin anything was kinda sad and somehow it affected my wei kou...
we end up siting at the smoking coner for lyk 1 hour plus smoking my lungs out...
somehow i'm still not doing very well... couldn't hide my uneasiness and unhappiness...
she told me she might be going out with aaron later... the moment i heard this... the instant bu shuang and uneasy effect came to me... but i know i need to ren and be more da fang...
of all things the one i most uncomfortable is her going to visit danny... she didn't say she will or not... but somehow i juz told her to go unnatually...
somehow... i felt yeah why not juz trust her once more... if she is mine she is... she is not the what should i do? cry and cry or kill myself or cruse the world? no way... but of coz i need to put in more effort la...
well i have been thinking how to be nice and sweet to her... and besides bring her out more going on a date more... and besides being more patience and not scoldin her and stuff... i decide to write her a note of how my hearts feel towards her every single day...
if i dun see her... i'll still write and hold it... then when i see her i'll pass it all to her... i'll try to buy her i big container... for her to keep all the notes..
well still trying to tiao zheng my heart... some how i think i became less da fang more xiao qi and more afraid she is leaving... i dun know why i became lyk this.. maybe its becoz of all the nonsence that happen in the pass... but well lets look forward for a better life and i'll pray hard so my wish my love will come true....

chao=D